Feeling Myself For You
Whether I feed it or starve it
It remains
This thing between us breathes
And beats with a life of its own now
An invisible cord that tethers
A bond, but not a bind
Ever so careful, we have been
It stretches, quietly reaching out
To touch us where it matters
Burrowing deep inside
Until we are both surprised
By its strength and resilience
And this steady allegiance
That asks for nothing in return
That simply wants to be as we
Take in one another, unannounced
But not covert, seeming to accept
The slow sweep of our gaze
Losing myself at moments
Swayed as I am by the sounds
Made by your fingers as
I watch the freckles and fair hair of your arms
Music coursing through our veins
And I feel your eyes on me
Noticing every little thing
Just like I do
A delight, bittersweet, at not having been let down
Of knowing that your honorable nature
Both draws me in and keeps me at bay
This shared reality between us
Like a secret paradise
Unspoken yet acknowledged in subtle ways
And the others fade into the background
To be replaced and forgotten
But you remain
Aware, always thinking, taking care
I can feel your mind at work
As you move with solidity and purpose
Releasing the beautiful sounds of your soul
With an ease I admire and envy
My eyes returning to you time and again
As if we are the only two
Really alive in the room
And I want to praise you and celebrate you
Give myself to you with my body
Which I have honed to a fine edge
In the time I have known you
Sleek like a cat with my ribs
Just beneath my skin
Feeling myself for you
Embrace the Paradox 