Huddled
Pacing back and forth like this
we could spend our whole life stalling
I’m not prepared to die like this
in the comfort of these padded walls
I tried to take a pill for it
to drop down down into it
With all my might, zeal barely concealed,
to what’s real, or at least how I imagine it
A few moments here and there
of ecstasy and forgetting
is not the same as getting it
And I don’t know anymore
Did I ever?
Dogs chasing tails
barking, growling
wagging and whining
whimpering, howling
We scratch and paw
mouth jawing at that bone
How did it come to this
pointlessness…
Tracing my shadows
Whispers of meaning
clinging to me
as I wipe them off
Like drops of water
Will I let them in?
Embrace the Paradox 